 Re: what makes people lose faith in humanity
Hitler was def one of them. Raised by a single mother and wanted to make a living selling paintings. Tell me that's not a recipe for disaster.
You're a clean slate as a kid. Upbringing and environment has a lot to do with how you perceive the world later as an adult. You really don't know any different. That's why we think everyone else is crazy sometimes. Different points of view.
Hard part is admitting maybe the way you think isn't the only way. Even harder is trying to get your brain to think like that. Brain develops neural networks and patterns. The more you're for example depressed the harder it is to naturally produce neurotransmitters like dopamine and serotonin. That's where addiction comes in, drugs match the same structure of those neurotransmitters and fit into receptables in your brain that cause happiness. Problem is it's temporary. You get the picture.
Used to be a narcissist, still kinda am in a way. Hated being told what to do. Never trusted anyone. If I give you something you have to give me something. If I show you respect I expect the same in return. I have high expectations and if you fail you are worthless. If you cross me I will destroy you. Bit like the mindset of mafia ha. 'You disrespected me and my family.' I can talk about myself all day and think the other person is interested beyond measure. Find myself actively editing what I say now to try and keep convo less about me and more about the topic at hand. It sucks. Not easy at all. Some women dig it though, and I'm certainly not marrying a dude, so what the hell sometimes.
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