 Re: A prayer for me
Hindsight is 20/20, but perhaps you've learned: emotions should never cloud or take precedence over reason.
My guess is Mom hit you because she did not have the emotional strength to reach or be with you empathetically at the time.
Why limit your chances to Christians alone? What's wrong with Muslim, Hindu, Sikh, Babylonian, Pagan or Humanist girls? Aren't there morally sound girls elsewhere?
Morality and Goodness weren't thought up by religion or Christians for that matter.
I consider it a stretch for anyone to tell you who you can or cannot see romantically.
Irrespective of how parents may beseech god, a child dies of starvation every 10 seconds.
I can say a prayer for you, but if god should take time out his busy, do-nothing schedule at my behest to change your medical test result for good, then he is an absolute joker and is neither worthy of your worship nor my prayer.
The outcome of the test was set when you had sex with her. No amount of prayer or wishing water into wine will change that.
If you feel down and anxious, it could be that you're entertaining adverse conversation of rejection, fear and uncertainty in your head. You can practice short meditations to offset these and harmonise your thoughts to reflect peace and compassion for yourself.
See Eckhart Tolle's Video: https://youtu.be/M00VLswZdyc?t=238  | 
