Just remember your feelings are a chemical imbalance. Your hormones are making you feel this way. You need a boost of endorphines happy hormones. And regular doses. Do whatever it is as long as it's legal to make you feel this way it's not worth ending your life.
It can be tempting to feel this way with all the crap going on in the world, but hang in there - life can change on a minute and success is sometimes right around the corner