My child

[yogarelax]

I did not feel comfortable putting this public. My special Ed. son, Jason ,passed away 3/4/07 SUDDENLY! I will not go into the details other than to say, had an illness which was never going to get better, { WE did not know that} Was a little under the weather for 3 weeks, went to the Dr. but on a friday night at 8pm we went to the emergency room, by 2am , rhey said he was going to die. He passed away on Satuerday night It was painless, peaceful, we just handed him to GOD. My ebay was and still is the only way I can distract myself from this horrible event. Some time I well add more.
I just wish I could have him back.
BUT, the BRIGHT spot is this STEALTH EBAY!!! I can tell you Jason would be cracking up. I get completly emersed in this and this was not an activity we shared. When you see the stars come on, well, J.J. does that, his job in Heaven.

[GreenBean]

When a child passes, we do miss them forever. The pain really only gets blunter
but never goes. I understand exactly what you are saying only too well.
Almost as a gift, however, you find something that distracts a little and gives
you help. Takes forever and a day. But you do. It would be much better to have
the child but you can share yourself with them even if it is ebay. If you can manage a smile then you can share that smile with your son! Don't let anyone tell you to get over this, just find strength to walk and live.
The love of your son asks that you do this. He still sends you love always.
God Bless.

[yogarelax]

Get over it... uuuuuuuuh that never happens, plus if you think about it ...why would you want to get over it??
I only cry because I miss him, but his life and death ,at 36, , well , since we all gotta go sometime, his was darn near perfect and we got the wonderful gift of being there.
Wow!! just seems like yesterday......

[yogarelax]

oooooh I feel kind of bad putting this on here. kind of a downer. Everyone I know has "dealth " with me till they are sick of it... Now I even stop strangers in the Grocery store. Whar a mess I am, but a grateful one who still loves life..... and the great memories.

[GreenBean]

Don't be hard on yourself.

[aspkin]

Sorry for your loss yogarelax, my 5 year old cousin died last year in a car accident and my grandfather died Christmas morning last year from lung cancer. It sucks. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about them. We just have to continue with life though. I'm glad you're doing well with eBay and it's taking your mind off hard times. Good luck,

[orbit]

yogarelax, sometimes it's good to let it out, even to strangers or virtual friends.
Keep him close to your heart and you will be fine.
Best wishes, peace and continue on.

[yogarelax]

thanks for all your kind words. I just miss him, but I guess if I was God and I wanted the best, most fun... well that would be "The Jason"